I want to put this to an end

My heart beats in slow songs
Pumping moments through my
Veins waking
Up in empty beds walk through
Months of bad mistakes
Give me back the
Life I had I really had nothing nothings
Better than a city full of
Lies that push through me I'm a
Burning building you're a loveless
Friend now I watch the clock now I
Walk on knives I got problems I'm
A fucked up kid I find problems
I'm alone again