Open closed doors

Swimming through black vaseline
Is my existence just a dream?
Can not tell which way is up
What's below or what's above
Fighting for a breath of air
I breath in but it's not there
So as my world melts away

I pray

That i will be ok someday
And may i not stay this way
Then after that i take some more
Hoping that will open the door

But the door is locked
From the outside