Save me, kill me

Here I stand alone
Abused by myself
Scenes of suicide
Like a solid wall of fear
Negativity overcomes
Positivity in me
Self pity, laughing
Screaming in my ears
The fuse is lit
The fuse that makes me explode
These questions I ask
Who gives and who takes?
If the answer is god, well
Who am I? His mistake?
An endless battle
Against depressive thoughts
Brief moments of victory
'Cause you know there is always more to come
The fuse is lit
The fuse that makes me explode
I am
Alone
Save me
Kill me

Save me
Sane me

Spent some time in myself to find out who I am
All I found was pain
Can I ever be saved?
Kill me please, set me free

Save me
Kill me
The fuse is lit
The fuse that makes me explode