Suicidal trend

On a cold and colorless day
I write this farewell letter
I 'm prepared to leave this world
and to end my suffering

I'm tired of lies
I don't want to suffer anymore
My life is a living hell
Why should i live?

I wish i could see the sun once more
wake up with no pain in my soul
feel the wind touching me
find a reason to live

I pick up the bullet that will set me free
I leave my memories in the past
I 'm afraid but I need to go
don't cry for me anymore

I feel the cold dominating me
The blood boils in my veins
time passes by in one second
I point the weapon to my own head

I wish i could see the sun once more
wake up with no pain in my soul
feel the wind touching me
find a reason to live

I hear a voice calling me
keeping me from going on
a strong light appears
I see a man dressed in white

He says that he knows me
and knows how I feel
He shows me the way out
A reason to live

I see the sun shing in my life
My sorrow is gone
The Heaven wait for me
Jesus showed me the life