Drugs

You said you trusted me
Your love is drugs to me
Hold me back from what i want to be
And leave me drowning in apathy

You’d think our love was morphine with how numb you made me feel
It’s like every time you kissed me i would pop another pill
I would get another high from your skin so soft
So when you and i broke up i only felt cut off
I had your love in a needle, prepped to inject in my wrist
100 milligrams and i’m not even high off this shit
Where’s the promise of release that i’m supposed to be feeling?
My feet are flat on the ground when i should be close to the ceiling
I’m giving up on his nonsense, by cleaning my conscience
Or killing it, I don't know, just want to make progress
So doctor, up the dosage and give me another note
Since I'm really feeling the same as I did before
Maybe it's the fact that I abused my prescription
That led you to think that I needed restriction
Or maybe it's the way I slurred "I love you" on the phone again
Since bet that I'm still drunk by the time you call me at 4AM

You said you trusted me
Your love is drugs to me
Hold me back from what i want to be
And leave me drowning in apathy

Suffering from with drawls an hour after i saw you
But if you ever ask id tell you that it was untrue
After hours of me screaming out i need you like your nicotine
I finally will settle down for hours of these wicked dreams
Wake up in the morning feeling burnt and hungover
Although i never touched a bottle i just had you come over
And your touch is all i needed to be drunk as a sailor
But in the second you leave im reaching for my inhaler
Because you take my breath away each time you pull out and leave
Im just hoping you’ll return with everything that i need
But I'm just kidding myself, I know you're leaving for good
Since I cleaned up all my love just to live like I should
I'm done with hearing your lies, between the kisses and sighs
So now I'm sobering up, and I'll be cutting our ties
I don’t know if its the feeling, or if it was the love
I don’t know if i loved you or i was dating a drug

You said you trusted me
Your love is drugs to me
Hold me back from what i want to be
And leave me drowning in apathy