Once dead

Once I was dead
Once I was dead in my sin
Self-destructive life
Boiling with anger and no self-control
Homicidal thoughts consumed my mind
Leaving me lifeless before my creator
I come in my wretched shame
Take me away
Wrapped in jealousy
Forced inside
Suicidal thoughts
Bipolar disorder
Spiritual adultery
I must escape this pain
Dead in my sin
Dead in my sin
I now stand before my God to give an account of my life
Begging and pleading to kill all the voices
Jesus I plead stop these thoughts of
Murder, suicide, emotional torment
Spirit of hate be gone from me
Father of all life, I now lay mine before you
In all my filth, wash me clean
I now give up this life and receive freedom from oppression
Covered in hate, wash me clean
Dead in my sin
All that I was
All my transgressions
Washed away
All praise
All glory
All merciful one