Time fades

So many times have I tried
to escape from the depths of my mind.
Holding back ...live in fear
...meaning slips away in tears,
while I try to be what you need.
...live in shame because I'm not me.
All of this runs so deep,
...and for that this life I keep.

I know you see the end, ...you pretend.
I know you, so the end you pretend to decide it's right.
I know you see the end, ...you pretend.
I know you see the end.
You pretend these lies pass time.

Falling away as the time slowly fades with me inside.
I can't think, I can't find any reason why I lie,
straight to your face.
...empty eyes,
...your emptiness has become mine.
Walk away from this pain
a victim of my own fucked up ways.

...the process of my fucked up ways.

...I must decide, deny my pride.