Self mutilation

Disgusted by the lies
The greed, the pain
I gut myself up
To stay sane

Soiled with hate
Swayed by anguish
I drag my entrails out
To be vanquished

Covered in bowels
Blood and vomit
I am happy
As I bleed away quiet

The pain subdue
Suppress and quench
I grab my beating heart
Crush to cleanse

I lose feeling
And I fade away
In my last breath
I refuse to pray