The unnamed

What the hell what's going on in my heart
I can't stand that pain no more
Even close friends of mine aren't worth to trust
As I've always done before.
Sick of this life alone but unjudged
I'am wanderring looking for myself
What i've got and what I need to be beloved
I think it's me to put on the shelf.
Who am I and what I'am for
Try to explain! Oh no! I'll find it in me
Living this life we're one to get more
But whenever we're down noone can see.
All that I've learned it is self-denial
To end with this system to end with this trial