Hunting me

So burdened with disgust,
I wage my war against the world.
It can seem a losing battle but it's not.
And i'm going out on my shield.

How much more can i give of myself?
I'm looking deep inside,
If the answers don't come soon i'm fucked.

But i'd rather die then hide.
There's monsters hunting me, i would always stand and fight,
But this beast i recognize. oh god, not me.

There's monsters hunting me, or just trapped deep inside.
But this beast i recognize. oh god, not me.
Myself i do distrust, no perfect martyr for the world.
If i think i'm getting out alive i'm not,
But i'm going out on my shield.

I know the score i've been beaten before.
The answers lie inside, i will never know it all who cares?
But i know enough to survive.