Panic attack

Why?
Do you punish me with everything I see, and everything I am?
Why?
Don't you fill the hole and take away the pain?
Why?
Do I wait so quietly, wait so patiently, still my breath to die.
Why?
Won't this ever end?

My guilty eyes have seen too much.
Relax as my nightmares come true and I start to cry.
All this fighting all this heartache,
never wondered why dreams don't true and colors fade
I'm always told to bad.
Pick me up to push me down and wake up in a sweat.
Wait, much calmer now and it seems so clear,
why invest so much in life.
Wait.

My reasons thin
it happens again
I can't fight this anymore.
Shot!

I'm ripped again
I'm gripped again
I know I'm at fault.

Blame.
Myself for everything I see.
All my life I've never been, and all
I've wanted were the simple things.
I don't need you anymore, I never needed you away.