Foolishly convinced

My traumatic fragility
No affection, passion and emotions
My afflicted personal world
Ambition shines like gold

I lost my time searching for pleasure
Relations swallowed by the void

Foolishly convinced I follow my way
Coming across eternal rivals
Confidence so far brought me deception
Only deep inside I feel real
This is my defense

I fall into cold sphere of emotions
Depression, sadness and sorrow
Like consequence of fear
And the emotional freezing of my soul