Medal of honor

Are you kidding me?
Because you've got to be joking on
A night like tonight especially.
I sense distaste,
But i was never great at reading your face.
I'm not a fucking trophy,
But to you i might as well have been.

We're outside of
An awkward christmas party,
Two separate shades of parting.

Say you're kidding me,
Except i don't think you're joking, and
Neither of us are laughing.
How did i end up bedside wondering what you meant by "the end?"

I'm not a fucking trophy.

Now you've seen
That i'm not exactly the person you wanted me to be,
So put it on my shoulders.

We're outside of
An awkward christmas party,
Two separate shades of parting.

Now you've seen
That i'm not exactly the person you wanted me to be,
Now you've seen
I'm not a fucking trophy.