I killed them

Some time ago they came - suddenly they have been there
Slowly getting closer - I got to know them better day by day
Starting to influence my life - even my behaviour
Bringing happiness and sorrow - let me look forward to tomorrow

Always there, never gone - they´ve been my motivation
Shining brighter than the sun - I didn´t care about my frustration
They just made me feel so good - just like nothing else in this world could
The happiest man on earth I had to be - I wish they´d never leave me

...an then i killed them
Forgive me, what have I done?
I just killed them...
...why did I have to be the one?

But meanwhile my frustration was growing stronger
Letting me doubt I could take it much longer
And though I was looking for a compromise
Nothing could save them from their demise

Starting to make me feel unhappy
I just had to ignore the pity
And so the pressure was on me
In the name of sanity they had to die...

...so i just killed them
Forgive me, what have I done?
I just killed them...
...why did i have to be the one?

Now that they´re dead I miss those feelings
And the excitement they brought into my life
Somehow there is something missing
Now that these feelings have died

But what if they had survived?
Would it have gotten better...or even worse?
Would they have enlarged or cured
The injury they left on my soul?