Why can't i let you go?

The time is never right
And I don't see it in my line of sight.
I keep on saying everything's all right
But then I wake up in the middle of the night.

And I wish that I could let you go.

It'll never be the same
And I wish I could say that I liked the change.
I wish I could take it back,
But dealing with pride is a skill I lack.

And I wish that I could let you go.

There's nothing I can do that would change it
And now our lives are re-arranged.

I can't help that I think about you all the time
And I can't get you out of my mind.
Would someone help me shed some light
On why you died and why I'm still alive?